Brat Out Of Control

This entire week has been stressful and the weekend hasn't been much better. I get up this morning and am feeling really blah and just cranky so thinking that a spanking would help I ask for one and got a good six swats from the paddle and afterwards I felt better but it didn't last!! My day was just the day from HELL!! My car has no air and I am waiting on my damn warranty company to approve $900.00 worth of work to get it fixed but living in Texas with no air in your vehicle is hell so that just aggravated me even more!! MG and I go to walmart to get groceries and we get to the check out lane and my debit card gets denied and I don't know why because I just had put money in the bank. So the cashier tells me to try a credit instead of a debit and it approved it through credit ( thank god for over drafts LOL) So I go back to the bank and they tell me that the money is there and it must have been some type of gliche on walmart's part ...of course they don't take the blame therefore they blame someone else. So that was my day!! Of course MG says to worry gets nothing accomplished and if there is nothing you can do about it why worry ....well I guess that is an older person's thinking LOL ....because a 35 year old's thinking is totally different and he agrees that when he was my age he was the same way!!

So after all that we get home and put the groceries away and I am thinking that the day has to get better but it doesn't ......:( So MG goes to the cigar shop to smoke a cigar and be with the guys and I just succumb to the day's aggravation and cry for a good hour and a half on the couch!! That is what I do when I just can't take it anymore and most of the time I do feel better afterwards. My first thought was to go to bed for the rest of the night and just not deal with anything more but I am working tonight so I can't do that!! I guess I am just tired of life's problems but I know that is just life and they aren't going to go away!!

Sometimes I think having a baby will help me ....give me something to be happy about and give myself something to concentrate on besides my problems. I am 35 years old with no kids ....and the older I get the more I think about wanting to have a baby! But MG doesn't want children due to his age and he feels that would just be unfair to the child. I don't know ....I guess I am confused on what answer is right! I have always wanted to have children and it's something I think about often and I thought by now those feelings would have gone away but they haven't! I think about MG and I age difference and how I will be the one left alone when he is gone and that is very scary for me .....so I think if I have a baby then at least I wouldn't be alone! I know it's crazy thinking but it's how I feel!!

Labels: aggravated, baby, thinking